If you're still with me...

My blogs kind of been all over the place, because I'm not really writing too much.
I didn't think Portugal was significant enough, and I know that I sound like a spoiled brat when I say that, but it really wasn't as great as I wanted it to be. I felt that I didn't get my moneys worth really.

Now I'm doing things with my life, as in things that will effect my future.

Like, this internship. And possibly volunteering at another school, or just more time at the same school... I duno.


I'm starting to realize that the real world is about to hit full swing again.
Honestly, I'm not ready for school in the Spring.

This has been a nice change. The classes are structured way more for the students rather than for the curriculum, if they have one.  I'm also not prepared to register for classes. I mean, that really just makes this whole experience way more... real. I don't want to go back to GSU. As much as I miss my down town life, I really love Spain life. It's more laid back, we have more time to relax, and it's more student friendly really.

I'm going to miss my internship, which just started yesterday. I'm going to miss my classes. I'm going to miss my lifestyle.

I'm not ready to be back in the American world. I'm not ready to be back to driving everywhere and having to worry about gas prices. Maybe I'll take the public transit to down town... that seems to work for a lot of people. And I'll still kind of feel Spanish.

Maybe.

I'm not ready for the real world.

I'm stressing about packing everything.
I'm stressing about financial things.
I'm stressing about credits.
I'm stressing about real world issues.
I'm stressing about class work.
I'm stressing about finding an internship that applies to my life.
I'm stressing about Spring 2013.


Ugh, I'm about to give myself a panic attack.



Breathe.

Breathe.

Breathe.



Welcome to the life of Me. I'm one big ball of worry, whether I show it or not. It's there. Always.

Spain puts the worry to rest though.
I can't tell if it's an escape, or if it's just meant to be.

España es mi media naranja.




<3

Buenas Noches