Real Talk.

I'm leaving Neverland for the real world on Friday night.
I'll have to be a grown up starting on Saturday night.

The magic is going to ware off, and I'm not going to be able to get it back.
Once you leave, there's no going back.

I'm scared shitless. Let's be real.
Life has been easy here. Granted, there have been a few minute struggles over dinero the last couple of weeks, but that's nothing compared to the real world that I'm going to be in in a few short days. Three days. Three. Days. I'll be in the real world. The land of nine to fivers. The land of grown ups. The land of responsibility.

I'm not going to be in this crazy world of "mañana". I'm not going to be in this relaxed world of "cuando puedes." I'm not going to be in Neverland anymore.

Like Peter said, once you leave, you can never come back.

I'm scared.

I know, in the long run that I'll be fine, but I don't want to leave this magical place that I've taken for granted of. I've called this place my home for seven months, and I already miss it. I haven't even left yet and I miss it. I haven't even checked in for my flight and I know that I'm going to be homesick.

I'm so afraid to leave.

I'm not sleeping right. I'm not as hungry anymore. I'm having mild panic attacks. I'm freaking out over here!

I'm not ready to return to the real world of responsibility and accountability. I'm not ready to real exams and classes with a constricting structure. I'm not ready for the responsibly to making sure that my gas tank is full or making sure that I'm early for things instead of right on time.

Jesus. I'm really not ready to go back yet am I?

Dear friends and family, can you just come here instead?

I'm freaking out just writing this.

I'm an emotional wreck because I know that I'm going to be leaving my fairy tale. I'm leaving my kingdom, my safe haven, the place that I've come to in order to escape everything that my home town had to offer me (aside from my great friends and family, but that goes without saying.)


UGH!

here it goes again:
I'm not mature enough for this.

Can I just stay here instead? This classical music really isn't even helping.

Help. I don't want to leave Neverland.


<3

Buenas (Malas) Noches.