I forgot some important things.
On the train ride to Madrid I had a mild panic attack.
I really don't do well with emotions... have you seen the Kristen Bell video about the sloth? I'm kind of like that, if I'm not between a 3 and a 7 on the emotional scale, I'm hyperventilating...
So on the way here, after I woke up from my nap, I looked out the window and saw beautiful mountains, and it reminded me of Granada. Then I realized I wouldn't be back there for quite some time... then I realized I was no longer in Sevilla either, which I might not ever get to go to again. Then I realized we were going to Madrid, which meant I'd be going home soon, and I wouldn't be in this amazing country again for a while.
I almost cried.
I've fallen in love with this country, again.
I don't want to leave. My heart literally clenches up every time I think about leaving. It's similar to how I imagine Edward feeling when he said goodbye to Bella in New Moon, or when Allie says goodbye to Noah in The Notebook at the house, or when Elena says bye to Damon in The Vampire Diaries... mind you all of these couples are reunited at some point... I'm still pulling for Delena.
But seriously, I don't want to leave.
As much as I really want to go home and see my family, I'd be perfectly content staying for another month...
I really do miss my family though.
But Spain! Spain is here. It's where my heart is it's fullest, it's where my thoughts are carefree, it's a place where stress can not survive. It's a place where lovers are born and fighters are changed into caretakers. It's a place where beer is considered water, and bread is considered a fruit. It's a place where olives are their own food group, where showers aren't mandatory. It's a place where shoes come above all, and bra's aren't totally needed. It's a place where men don't play games, where women aren't intimidating. It's a place where rainbows and unicorns are from... It's a magical place. It's a wonderful heavenly place.
I'm going to live here one day.
I really am.
... But for right now, as much as I am in love with Spain desperately and hopelessly... I really do miss my family, and I'd like to see them, and take a small vacation before heading back into this school mode I've been in.
I don't want to leave though...
Ugh.
It's conflicting.
I miss it already.
<3
Hasta Luego.
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