I didn't sleep very well.
Got up around 4:30 and really didn't go back to sleep... Tangled didn't even help, which is weird because that normally makes me knock out...
I woke up mainly because I had a dream that my friend went into labor, then stayed awake because I realized how nervous I was.
It's really great having an over active imagination... really.
So I'm leaving today to head to Philly, then tonight I'm hopping on my plane to cross the big blue.
I'm all packed, got my boarding passes. Got my passport... everything's ready, so I know that I'm prepared... But I'm still nervous as ever.
I know I'll be fine the second I land, because I know the language and I know where I'm going.
I'm nervous about finding somewhere to go the first day, just because my host mom won't be there, and I'll pretty much be alone the first day. But I know where I'm going like, sleeping wise...
Ugh.
This is an extremely complicated emotion...
I feel like I felt when I first moved away to college again.
I'm a young adult now though... almost a grown up.
I guess this is the time when I'm supposed to 'grow up' because I haven't needed to be this independent before. UGH!
Growing up sucks..
The real world sucks..
Stupid epiphanies.
Time to be a real adult I guess...
...
Why didn't Disney prepare me for this?
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